I wish I could speak to my mentor one more time.

I do understand, to some extent, why people are so appalled by my actions. I am only frankly tired of hearing their opinions.

Working for Matthew Engarde was an unforgivable mistake. One that did not cause any further damage to my face, at least, but a grave mistake nonetheless and, every single time I see him posting in the community, that faint memory of the anger and shame that I felt rushes back to me.